Sunday, July 26, 2015

New beginnings...

(I know that some people will say that there are really greater problems in the world right now and this series of posts is not for them)

 
I guess it's time...
People who know me, know that I have not been myself lately.
And I recognize that you cannot have everything going your way.
A few years back, still a freelancer controlling my own work, with no particular cares, I decided to do something for myself. I started a healthy nutrition, I practically lived at the gym. I did not have any normal clothes, just tracksuits, shorts and trainers.
I had a personal trainer or two or three and a specialist who told me what to eat. I had no time problems. I controlled when to work, when to eat.
I made it... I transformed myself.


But things are not always easy.
There came a time that I could not make it anymore.
I had to work more and be the main provider of my household.
I worked 12-13 hours a day. I am not complaining, I love my work.
But I "landed" on the real world. Where people do not care about their figures and muscles.
Where people do not have the time to actually go to the gym.
When you come home at 11 o'clock and you haven't seen your kid since 7 am in the morning.
When you are dead tired and you have to clean, cook and prepare yourself for the next day at work. Being a teacher is not that easy since you have to learn new things every day in order to teach. And in my new job, although I love it, I just have to sit on a desk all day. No normal eating times.
No movement (being a kinesthetic person, this is killing me!)
No time. No time for the gym.
No personal trainer. Believe me ... it makes a difference.
So I gained weight. For me 8kg is A LOT!!! No matter if people are telling me I am ok.
I feel bad...
Too bad. My clothes do not fit me anymore. I don't really care when people tell me I have normal weight.
I am too ashamed to go out.
It is the middle of the summer and I have not been to the beach, yet. It is boiling hot. I stay at home.
I know what my problem is. I know how to fight it.
No self-discipline. A very bad mood. A loss of will.
I took the decision to go to a nutritionist. A person who will guide me through this.
I have done it before in more pleasant conditions but I will try again.
I decided to document this journey with tips and tricks and mostly feelings about what I am doing.
Hope to have some encouragement and people who are willing to share their journey with me.


To be continued....

2 comments:

  1. Another inspiring post as usual dear Theodora !!
    I started my journey about 8 months ago through a FB group based on accountability and sending positive vibes. I believe I made a very good transformation. I started on my own .. all alone, then found a gym but still on my own with the guidance of my online trainer.
    Now, I had to leave all (being back to real life as you said) but very proud of lots of new good habits I adopted and am sure I can always be back to the right track easily. You too can easily do it, I am sure of it ;)

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  2. Thank you for your support dear Ayat! It means a lot!

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